Scared...

Today is the day I get to go see the first ex and to clarify, the second ex and I won't be getting back together because he is happy with someone else and the friend of the second ex is a player and I don't want to mess with that. The first ex is off limits because he is in jail. Ok now I'm scared because this feels like I'm going to see him for the first time. It will be the first time since he went to jail. I'm excited also, but I have so many scarrs from him. He would be my first love and he hurt me so many times. I don't know what I'm going to say to him or what he is say to me. Don't get me wrong I still love him but does he love me?