GRR!!

Well Mrs. Sims why did you leave so much for us to do today. I hope I did good on it, but I was in a hurry so sorry if I didn't. So I'm really tired and want to go home. Last night my co-workers said they can tell everything is getting to me. One of them even helped me with my work so I could leave and get an extra hour of sleep. It was nice of him. well class is over, and I'm bout to fall asleep.

Scared...

Today is the day I get to go see the first ex and to clarify, the second ex and I won't be getting back together because he is happy with someone else and the friend of the second ex is a player and I don't want to mess with that. The first ex is off limits because he is in jail. Ok now I'm scared because this feels like I'm going to see him for the first time. It will be the first time since he went to jail. I'm excited also, but I have so many scarrs from him. He would be my first love and he hurt me so many times. I don't know what I'm going to say to him or what he is say to me. Don't get me wrong I still love him but does he love me?

Confused

So my first boyfriend that messed up that is in jail wants me to come see him tomorrow. You already know that, but what you don't know, the boyfriend that I recently broke up with asked me to bring his stuff back yesterday. I seen him for about twenty minutes. I felt at peace with him, you know how you feel safe with one person, well that's how I feel when I'm around him. All I kept thinking was, I wish you would hold me. Then he said he had to go meet his new girlfriend...I felt like he stomped on my heart. It was as if he was trying to hurt me. So the next thing I knew I was at work texting him, and asking him to set me up with his best friend. He said that he thought it would be good. So now I don't know what I am doing or what I'm going to do when his friend calls me tonight after work. I'm really confused. I want both of my ex-boyfriends and apparently the friend wants me. If anyone has advice comment me.

Someone Else

When was the last time
I cried over someone else?
It feels like a crime
To love someone else

That someone
Was the person
I had fun
With everyday

I was happy
Surprisingly someone else was better
I could actually be me
Now I'm unknown

Someone else freed
The heart you locked up
Now I bleed
My tears for him

This someone
Made me happy
Now he is done
With me because of you

Fantasy

What do I want in life?
I want us to be together
But your knife
Severed any hope

You messed up
So I guess all thats left
Is to look in the cup
Of fantasy

The fantasy of us
Is in there
You and I don't fuss
We are happy together

You didn't become
Something bad
What happened to overcome
Yourself, to not hurt me?

I wish we could
Be like that
I'm not sure you even would
But it can't really happen anymore

If you want to try
To fix us
And promise not to lie
I'm open to anything

Puzzled

Its one of those days, I'm so tired, but so happy. My ex boyfriend decided he wanted me to come see him in jail. He messed up and he knows it, but for some reason I still love him and I think he still loves me. I don't know what I will say to him though. I guess we will find out next Wed. when I go see him.

"In the End" by LIncoln Park

"Your a Jerk" by New Boys

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